Sensuous Goal Refinement+Emotional Magnetizing [Danielle Laporte Burning Question]

I want my day to feel like soul electric funk

I want kissing to feel like cosmic mouth orgasms

I want my next success to feel like Mother Theresa, a fiery soul filled heart, and a priestess during a tantric ritual

I want my body to feel like a goddess warrior: strong+sexy.

I want smiling to feel like angel’s kissing on cheeks and dancing wild+free

I want my friendships to feel like “aha moment’s, mmmm so true moments, fiery, with incense, rose quartz, wine and good cheese, with a splash of Biggie”

I want my nervous system to feel like smooth and glorious nectar delivered by Aphrodite herself

I want my gigs to feel like Martin Luther King as her recited “I had a dream” … a chid free and unafraid to pick her nose in front of a a crowd, an inspired mother as she tells her story of losing her son and her ideas to stop the violence, stop the hate, and create CHANGE!

I want my neighborhood to feel like a child’s lullaby sung in spanish by a grandmother as she rocks you to sleep

I want my integrity to feel like a  pact made in a tribal circle, a promise for all the future generation. A pact of peace,love,+ unity.

I want money making to feel like a flowing river of gratitude, progression, freedom, fun. Like me discovering a secret garden filled with glowing fruit+sparkle trees.

I want my word to feel like a fusion of love, truth, laced with intuitive knowing, and strength

I want my laughter to feel silly+wild like little girls rolling on the floor laughing in pink tutu’s

I want the end of my day to feel like an alter with a peacock feather, a white candle and vanilla amber breezes

I want being of service to feel like feeding starving mouths, empowering abused women, discovering the cure for cancer

I want philanthropy to feel like a tribal indian leader serving her tribe

I want my challenges to feel like a spiritual warrior about to begin her quest to enlightenment

I want  my love to feel like a cosmic union, a perfect peace, a trustful unshakeable knowing, a free dance of harmony, friendship, reckless laughter, adventure+ mind blowing sex.

I want my writing to feel like  a threesome with Khalil Gibran, Rumi, and Anais Nin.

I want my ideas to feel like light shining through a open clear window

Waited till I saw the Sun + True love

“You give but little when you give of your possessions. It is when you give of yourself that you truly give.” ~Kahlil Gibran 

Have you ever found yourself confused? lost? hurt? angry? I can bet that each of you have said yes to one of those (and if not I would say dig deeper). We as humans experience a range of emotions and some of those emotions are heavy emotions. Heavy emotions are what I call those feelings that weigh on you. Guilt, anger, resentment, sorrow. They feel heavy. Pay attention to what feels good and what doesn’t feel good in your body. Light emotions are those feelings that lift you and are feelings like love, forgiveness, trust, gratitude.

Now why do these emotions matter? Because we all got them! that’s why. We can’t avoid the facts. We can’t avoid the truth of our human experience we live and we die and in between we are affected and what we choose to do with those experiences is up to us. We must be the fierce warriors that navigate our inner emotional terrains and explore what’s in there.  It’s not so easy and this game is not for the faint of heart. But I promise you one thing… those that seek and dive deep, discover treasures of the soul.

 If we forget the feelings of love, the light feelings, it becomes a more difficult task to even know that that heaviness is wrong and that you don’t deserve it. You begin to identify so much with sorrow and sadness or boredom that you forget what true happiness is like. I know this, because I too forget. I was so lost in just being loved. I didn’t give a fuck about anything I just needed a hit of love. I would treck on the train at all hours of the night to see an ex (who mind you was at one point extremely abusive) just to get a hit. I was disgusted with myself and the disgust further kept me down. I needed to see to remember the sun, the light, the love again to BELIEVE .

I waited till I saw the sun to change but once I saw a glimmer I created space in my subconscious it finally remembered there was more than the darkness that had been my life. And I worked daily to reconnecting to the sun, to the light, to love.

True love, sustainable love, is not love that is needy, controlling and selfish. True love is not love that needs love from material possession or others and hangs on for dear life. True love is within and connection to source to the divine. Cultivate true sustainable love by taking a moment to write down and be honest in all the ways you have had not true love, needy love, insecure love, etc. Then right down 1 thing you will do to connect to this true divine love be it meditation, dancing, poetry.

Post in the comments below and inspire one another.

Blessings,

Christine

Spirit Junkies, Inner Peace the new Manolos

Gabrielle Bernstein is like a real life downtown barbie. She is gorgeous, dresses in dope clothing and is sleek and chic. But here’s why I think she is truly gorgeous. It’s her miracle mindset that is truly sexy. She is a spiritual barbie. A woman who is grounded in this world and makes this spiritual practice approachable for our generation of women and even men.

Spirit Junkie (which can be purchased in any stores on http://www.gabbyb.tv and http://www.amazon.com) is now RELEASED. I had the honor of reading the book prior to its release and WOW. A powerful book detailing Gabby’s own journey from NY city party girl and drug addict to a Spirit Junkie. Transforming her fear mind to a miracle mind. She is a fierce warrior of love and she is leading the way for tons of women around the world to do the same.

The world is changing, there is a deep call to go within to have sustainable happiness which is only found on the inside. No house, shoes, man, can ever make you happy until you get this, and in Spirit Junkie Gabrielle reminds us of that using the principles from A Course in Miracles in an approachable language for our generation.

 

I highly recommend this book, and remember inner peace truly is where its at and in this book you have inspiration and a guide book to get you to release all the fears in the way of that inner peace and sustainable love that lives within.

 

Blessings,

Cosmic Christine

Divine Ramblings 1

I have found myself most through the fires of the dark, through the pain, through the struggle, through the tears. 

 

Through begging the universe WHY ME! the desperation of the pleading for love. I have found myself when on my knees at the end of the rope, I found a state of trance, a realization of the way the universe dances through pain and through struggle just as much as through pleasure and joy.In fact I found that through the pain and the blood tears shedding came the leap into the stars of joy but not before it.Selfish to just think that the universe is so simple when she is so vast and glorious in her complexities. It is alot to ask from a mere human, but that’s why I have a calling deep within  this blood to connect to the more” and the truths of the deeper realms and the unseen realms where source is limitless because it is there that we can live with the universe and not against her. Not trying to make the rules simple because we say so, we live in her world of trees and animals and stories that are mapped into the stars like your pain is mapped in your heart and your desires too. A web of depth, don’t deny it because then your spirit dies. You are alive when you open the eyes and lift the veil and see all, accept the dark and the light and dance in the ecstatic realization that all truly all pain and pleasure is bliss.

I will be write more divine ramblings… stay tuned love you all. stay true.

Blessings,

Christine

Dancing in the Dark

I wrote this poem inspired by a brief moment last night walking from the train to my house and thinking “Fuck! I miss when I would mess up. I miss being in that exploration mode of just messing up and finding pleasure in the darkness of being reckless, I felt so alive. I felt so me. I miss the danger the curiosity. But the light is calling me now I heard and my time is done, the lessons were learned. Though I still miss it.”  The next day my coaching client expressed the same feeling. Here is my poem and dedication to the pleasure of dancing in the dark. Hope you enjoy

Play this song before you read poem …. set your mood and go in deep explore your shadow, your dark and dance in it… Report what you find in the comments below …

Tantric Song

 

 

As the time rolls forward

I cling to dear life for it to stop
if just for a moment
for it to stop
so
I can revel and roll in the bliss of the pain
of the silence and the dark rain
that I feel in this moment
Some fear the abyss
I dance in it
cravings its warmth
knowing its world
of mystery intrigue
the sting is familiar to my senses
and my senses smell the amber passion oozing from the depths
of this moment
my senses sense the excitement in this moment
theres something in the danger
I crave it…
taste it.
the blood drips from the knife and in a
seductive daze, I watch peaceful
lost in the cosmos
I experience union with the divine
in this little death
in this moment I find peace
the light is chasing me though, I can’t stay for long
my heart beats
puddles form as I step forth
tears lead the way back home
yet my spirit longs for what was once found
in the pits of the shadows of the night
but for now I revel on the brink of the path between the dark and the light
in this moment

peace.

cosmic kisses,

Christine

and don’t forget to go deep and share what you learned from your darkness and exploration of your shadow…. I would love to hear. It’s in honoring our dark and our light that we come to love ourselves fully and love others fully, for our totality not just the positive shmozitive. So be real dig deep and share! xoxo

Tap into Your Cosmic Sensuality+(other juicy feelings)

We walk around life most of the time in this hustle mode mentality. We walk up brush our teeth (hopefully), take a shower, maybe grab a cup of coffee or green juice, but immedietly most people begin rushing to get somewhere to do something that takes away from the moment. The pleasures of life are often often void as people are numb to their sensations, to their senses that allow them to feel pleasure.

The senses are a kind of reason. Taste, touch and smell, hearing and seeing, are not merely a means to sensation, enjoyable or otherwise, but they are also a means to knowledge – and are, indeed, your only actual means to knowledge.

~St. Thomas Aquinas

The senses are defined as “the physiological capacities within organisms that provide inputs for perception.” But in a little bit sexier language. Senses are like a cosmic filter. That allows us to feel deeper, smell richer, taste delishier? (I like to event words sometimes) 🙂 Our senses allow us the possibilities to touch a world that usually goes unseen by us. These senses laced with present moment consciousness ie I am cool with being right here now and am not thinking about anything but being here now and just gently observed what your food tastes like as it hits your mouth, and what your skin smells like as you bring your beautiful arm to your nose, what your hands feels like as you gently massage them. Tapping into these senses is a key in tapping into your cosmic sensuality+other juicy feelings of pleasure.

Because lets be real, most of the time we rush through the pleasure and dwell in  the anxiety. So heres to taking a moment to be here now and playing with those cosmic senses. This is the art of sensuality to be here now with presence and a total catering to your senses.

Play+Explore and share what this sensuous journey feels like….and share in the comments below! I can’t wait to read and be creative the senses like that!

 

 

mmmmm,

with Cosmic Pleasure,

Christine

 

 

 

When Sh*! hits the Fan+ (How to still be Fabulous)

 

This past year I was working on my business Sacred Space NYC, finishing my masters in mental health counseling, and connecting with like minded people to allow my business to grow and unfold and represent the best me and all of me. During this year there were many personal changes in my life. I didn’t know how to manage the transition in my personal life. All the tools, coaches, therapist, healers couldn’t get me to LET GO . I didn’t want to let go, I didn’t want to feel better. I thought  I did but the thought of truly letting go meant that I was going to have to let go of the me I had been identifying with for so long. That kind of death, I wasn’t able to handle- so I held my grip tighter.

Shit really started to hit the fan aka all go down hill. I was still managing to work hard and connect and work on my business but I was not being my fabulous self. The problem wasn’t that I wasn’t being fabulous, it was that I wasn’t accepting that I wasn’t being fabulous. I wasn’t truly allowing myself to process the change, process the transitions, process the new me emerging. I wasn’t truly accepting that this was my time to not be fabulous. I wasn’t allowing myself the space to just be okay with being a bum at home and not going out, and crying out of no where, and not feeling sexy. I didn’t own the pain as my truth- I was too busy worrying about fixing it, working through it, and worrying about when I would be over it.

 

The lesson I learned was that being fabulous is being real with yourself and being real in general for that matter. Being fabulous is giving yourself persmission to be where you are an explore it when you feel like it. I realized that when shit hits the fan the best thing you can do is rest. Give yourself permission to rest, to heal, to not do anything but that. It’s kind of like getting the flu, rest is the only way to cute it. Take extra care of yourself, be tender and allow yourself to be as you are. Trust the saying ” and this too shall pass”

 

and indeed it did and will continue to. I would love to hear about any time that your shi! hit the fan and how you took care of yourself?

 

cosmic blessings,

Christine

Trauma to Triumph!

I decided to write this blog because we all have experience some kind of trauma and it’s time we share our trauma and how we went from trauma to triumph. Some people’s stories are more traumatic than others. Some are just gruesome. Some might night seem as awful but still affected the shit out of you. Either way, trauma hurts and I am hear to give us all permission to share our stories and our beautiful gifts we gained through the drama.

I heard a story recently, about a lil boy being chained like a dog by his foster parents a couple of weeks ago. I can’t tell you the amount of disgust, anger, pain, and like really WTF! I felt.  I immedietly wanted to know more about the effects this severeeee abuse had on this beautiful innocent child. My friend who told me the story works with him in a special needs school and he told me he doesn’t really know how to show gratitude. He kind of acts like “a  savage, it sounds bad but its like he doesnt know how to show love or receive love.” My heart was cringing, my stomach in nots, literally my soul was crying. I felt so sad. I remembered that this feeling was the feeling that as a child I ALWAYS felt. This connection to suffering and woundering why and how it could exist and wanted to be part of making it go away simple, I was always a healer I guess. I wanted to run there and hug him, work with him, show him some tools to help him to trust.

In that moment I also remembered that trauma is more commen than we’d like to admit. We are all walking around with subconscious or conscious traumas that run the way we interact with people. This made this little boy’s world seem so incredibly volatile + unsafe. He didn’t receive the proper love and nurtuing that he needed in other to thrive.  His needs were unmet.  So we don’t need to be chained to a fence to have experience severe trauma, trauma wears many masks. I have experienced physical, emotional, verbal abuse in my home+ in a romantic relationship. It took the foundation under my feet and made me constantly fear that I was not good enough. THis little boy, like me, and probably like you have all felt unsafe and something in our lives or in someone else’s life that we saw made us fear. Trauma is paralyzing, it criples our self -esteem and our reality becomes skewed and becomes shaped by the darkness of the trauma and not on the truth. AND THE TRUTH IS ALWAYS THIS: so perk your eyes up, because this is a key you don’t way to lost.

The truth is that we literally all deserve love,period. Sometimes the people we were born to, or raised by, or teachers or media or anyone for that matter aren’t healed themselves and they fuck up and then without meaning to they fuck us up. But you dont need to question why this trauma happened to you, just know that you don’t deserve any of it. It’s just how you work with it. Turn your trauma to triumph. Learn the lessons in the trauma. What did it teach you?

My trauma taught me to understand from an early age that people can hurt you and people are messed up and need to be reminded to love. It fueled my mission even further to hold space for healing so that other people wouldnt be hurt. It allowed me to connect further to my intuition+ my desire to understand the roots and the truths of this universe we live in. My trauma made me strong, courageous and a better lover. I am more compassionate and open minded and don’t judge anyone’s story no matter what ever. I believe love cures all.

What did your trauma teach you? How did you turn your Trauma to Triumph. Post in the comments below and share- your story is powerful and we are all waiting for your unique lessons.

Cosmic Blessings,

Christine

Wounds, Lords of Light+Dark, and Healing

I wrote this very personal blog to share with you all a feeling that I have experienced throughout my life many times, but recently, the difference was that I was conscious of it. The feeling of lonliness was the wound. And though painful the wound of feeling lonely; the lesson that came from it went beyond the pain. I usually figure that if I have felt this, that some one out there has felt it too. I hope this post inspires you all to stay strong through the wounds, through the transition and see the wisdom in the wound, because every moment is sacred.

I feel the lonliness rise in between the moments of activity and the moments of stillness. In that very moment, I allow a little light in. I feel the light touch the wound, and I cringe. I tense up a bit more. Remembering there’s more then this pain, hurts. The light reminds me of the light that I’ve been missing for so long, and it touching my sore wound, hurts. I know enough now- conscious enough now, to say Breathe. “It’s all good Christine” but STILL. The big 4 letter word FEAR creeps in. I fear it isn’t true. I fear that I will eff it up and that somehow it won’t be all good.

So close to being healed. It’s in the transition that the wounds are the rawest. It’s like at that moment, where the light touches the wound, I remember- or some part of my spirit remember’s the joy and  light that she deserves, But, has deprived herself of.  It’s like a faint scent that says “I was missing this. I need this.” All the emotions that were being stuffed, ignored, bubble to the surface and it’s a tad bit overwhelming. Actually it’s really fucking overwhelming. It’s a pure straight up cocktail of feelings. I consider myself to be a sensitive person but this is just RAW on the rocks emotions. No splash of sugar, juice, nada! just RAW emotions and that can be very scary for us humans and our psyche’s and definetly for me. In that moment though I crave the joy and the light I have been missed another part that seems to be armed with a silver sword comes and trys to battle me and tells me “stay comfortable, at least you know this feelings. It’s fine, you’ll get use to the pain.” Part of me then dance’s between the light and the dark. Part of me wants to run back to stay with the wound, to re-open it for fear of the unknown for fear of the new for fear of the light. Because the light touching my raw wound, for the first time in a long time,  stings and I am not sure I will make it.

A dance between the lords of the the light and the lords of the dark. But the light whispers again “you deserve joy,period.”

Here’s the key that I learned in this dance. The secret is being+truly being with this moment. Beinging in the wounds of this moment. Being in the pleasure of the lessons of the wounds, of the dance of the light and the dark, in the transitioning, in it all- in this moment. Not waiting or anticipating what’s next- cause that state is not real. You see, only this moment is real because the future is just a thought. So I breathe again. in and out. mmm… For these two seconds I’m in my body and not in my mind- that though glorious is sometimes a glorious pain in the ass. And for these two seconds, I remember that the space between the action and the stillness and all the spaces that exist are all sacred. I remember that the wounds, as the healing, are all moments and opportunities that are part of my transformation. And whichever wounds you are nurturing back to health, are part of your transformation so be with them, accept them honor them all in this moment, and Breathe.

Blessings,
Christine 

Post below what your wound is and how you are accepting it in this moment.

The Moment is Now

 

The moment is now.  How many times have we said “when I have this, or when I have that, or when I meet him or when I meet her I will be x, y,z (happy, good, complete) The truth about that is it’s a lie 🙂 The moment is now, if you want joy now you must gently open your eyes to living beyond what we call the “physical world” and really silence yourself to feeling the truth that lives beyond words, the truth that lives in the trees, and the rain, in the moment of birth, and connection with a friend that is a stranger but feels like a lover from a past life. The truth that lives in the beyond this physical realm consciousness. Cultivating this consciousness of love, of oneness allows us to gently realign to THE MOMENT IS NOW, because everything is perfect now.

 

This moment is full of potential, this moment is the only moment. The past is gone and the future is not yet here so the only truth is now. The tricky part is that we humans have a complex psyche and it can be rigid with old patterns based on a combination of things our own unique personality and biology, our upbringing with our family, friends, peers, media all of it and in the cocktail of influence we get lost and we believe that we are not PERFECT, we believe that we don’t have the right to be glowing light beings of full joy. We forget that we are all one and real life problems set in.

 

I’m here to remind you though there is a balance and though it goes beyond words I promise you the bliss that exists in these moments is nothing less than orgasmic divine bliss. Breathe into this moment, allowing this moment to be the only moment, forgetting yesterday or tomorrow and just being in your body hearing your breathe and feeling the air and the wind or the sun. Just feeling this moment.

 

here is the only moment that exists, the moment is now, live it up.

 
What do you feel in this moment describe the sensations and textures of what you feel right now , share in the comments below.

 

Cosmic Presence,

Christine